My big struggle with commissions.

Commissions have always scared me.

They are, in my eyes, a big deal. I know many artists, and so called artists, don't really make that of a big deal out of them and they sell their art with ease, and even go as far as to overprice pieces that honestly shouldn't be.
Well, not me. When I think of commissions I think of an actual business contract, which in itself is a serious thing. That always makes me think: I'm just not worth it.

Sometimes I get all pumped and high motivated, and go ahead and say that I will open commissions, just to be faced with the truth that I've put there for myself. The truth that I'm not good enough to be selling my art.

I guess this comes from how I see myself as an artist. And that is, a varied artist, without a real -expertise- in any artistic field in concrete. Unlike many illustration artists who are greatly skilled in drawings, digital and otherwise, I lack of that skill. Because I never focused on one in question, the learning is slow. There is learning and improvement, but it's slow, too slow maybe. And also because of this, I never really commissioned anything else, not my writting, not any film-making/editing skill, voice acting, animating, etc.

So what's the point of this journal entry? Well, no point really, I just wanted to write down these thoughts so I can analyze them later on, and maybe overcome these "fears" on account I need to save some money.